Hi HWS Community,
this is a little strange title but maybe straight and easy enough.
I want to describe as short as possible what all of this is about and why in the first place.
Running HWS for the last 3+ years and appreciated to say all the time as Number 1 server, has some downsides, many don’t know.
So let me start by making something very clear:
HWS in its core is run only by Jascha and me. Even more clear: HWS in terms of Community Manager, Universe and Co is only run by me.
Of course there are some sub trees to that claim:
- Ju is helping me with awesome POIs and being the “HWS Garage Master” (with help of DeeExpus)
- Hayawen is the new “HWS Connect Master”
- The HWS Team and HWS Police (you can find all names in the Guide and Discord) are a backbone of “observing” and helping as well all the time
- And many other volunteers to improve and help HWS all the time
All of that is “flowing through my fingers” though. Every single day. The decisions I have to make daily are plenty, the words I have to write daily are countless, the daily hours I have to spend for all of that are not enough. If the EU servers goes to bed, the NA server keep me awake. Waking up with 100s of PMs make my day already. (to have more admins to help is a different topic we will discuss on a different place for now)
Technically that means 2 things:
- My goal to be “done” one day with my Todo list is rather an illusion
- My physical and mental condition are under stress 24/7.
Especially the second point is something many don’t know in the fullest.
What I’m saying here is that my brain, over the years, got treated almost only with Empyrion / HWS. And the more you treat your brain with one particular thing the most perfect and efficient it becomes.
But to not going in detail it means that if I’m doing stuff for HWS / Empyrion I am “positive” stressed" and if I’m doing no HWS / Empyrion, I am “negative” stressed.
In a way, that I can’t really relax and want to solve things as fast as possible to somehow catch up with point Number 1 from above to stop Number 2.
Somehow a weird spiral / contradiction you might realize.
Sounds worse than it is maybe but why I’m saying all of this?
I am telling this honestly because handling over 1000 players alone is a task… well, you can’t always do, right. But because I have to do it always, it means I am sometimes “hard to work with”.
I can come over unfriendly, aggressive or in other ways inconvenient.
While this is not my nature, you know by then, that “he is on fire again”
Back to the point: I try to improve my thoughts and flow in my brain all the time and I think I make progress over the years.
Still, naturally I get haters, rage quitters, insults, etc. because of my behavior.
That is regrettable for me but should be please understandable and almost a disclaimer of working with me / joining HWS. I am reasonable though and telling me friendly to chill has an instant effect of reflection.
Words like “please, thank you” are instant effects as well.
No money in the world can replace for me these two magic words. That is how I work. Believe / understand it or not.
Now, if there were bans from me, which resulted due the points above than it is how it is.
But if both can reflect on it and improve for the future, I am the guy of a Second Chance.
Done in the past couple of times already and in most of cases successful.
I had a longer discussion with both of them and regarding the behavior we agreed on improvements in the future - so I lifted the bans.
Since I announced the bans in the public, I have to announce the unban in the public as well for transparency reasons.
To clarify, =ice= lost completely all of his progress. OCD levels, OCD Content, OAM levels, content and just completely everything. He starts by nothing again, because more than the behavior were involved.
The overall summary about this and I know a lot would have run HWS in a different way is:
if there is a real reflection being done about things, I give a second chance. Especially if the player was constructive in a special way and overall like Empyrion.
if an exploiter got “perma” banned, the second chance is applied if 1. promise being made to never do it again and 2. the exploit is fixed by Eleon in the meantime he got banned doing.
Again, I know many would act in a different way and maybe I’m sometimes to naive and get the ticket for it. But I believe still in good values and by now HWS is for many not only a game but a community and nice place to be.
Even if I’m sometimes too sensitive, burned out, etc. overall the positive spirit of the HWS Community is noticeable I think and the guys with a second chance would not waste it by only getting banned again after it.
I should work on my definition of “describe in short”
I hope you understand me / my motivation better now.
I felt it was maybe helpful to some. Again, it should not excuse my behavior sometimes but just be sure that first written words are always tricky, second I’m not a negative guy in nature.
That being said, thanks for reading and hey, it would help if you could learn German as well, to make it easier and rather laugh than hate about some pitty things