I want with this little post, to give my apologize to the great community of HWS.
First of all, there is no excuse for my behavior, no matter how drunk, angry or stupid i behaved.
As an admin or owner, i would not accept any behavior like this from any of my thrusted helpers, so i am lucky hws have a owner that see more than the day ahead, and the day before!
So, to ABN, i am sry i went nuts on you lads. I will not go in detail about why i was angry, but want you all to know i was not angry with any of you, or any ABN members at all.
I was angry with some real life issues, and sadly, i screwed up, drank to much and found someone totaly different to blame for my own anger.
I of all, should know better than to take my rage out in a game, on other people.
But sadly it happend, and for that, and my behavior, i am sorry.
I do not ask for any forgivnes, just want you to know that i feel bad about it, and hope that one day you will speak with me again, and i hope that you know i will always help whenever i can, if you would ask for my help.
To rexx, i want to apologize for my behavior against other players on the server, and for the fact that i reacted to fast to try and help another player! This should not happend, and i know that!
A peptalk about me reacting to fast, would be something i could live with. But failing as a person after being reported, does not feel good at all!
So i dont ask for your forgivnes either, but i hope you also know that i regret all of this.
I will use the next weeks to think about my actions, and see if i will stay as HWP. Even if rexx still have me there, (tho, powerless) i do not feel i deserve it at all for now.
But being HWS, alongside Gareth, and meeting so many great persons, is also the main reason i play Empyrion at this stage! I like helping people, i like meeting new people.
So, yeah! Thinking time!
And, as a last quote! I hope the rest of the community will find some room to forgive me for my behavior against abn, rexx and hwp!