If you suicide virtually you will pay for your SIN and go to virtual hell which is an infinite loading screen 
That’s hell right there.
Anyhow I dumped my ship in some orbit on public, so people could scrap it.
I suicided so I could spawn at my homebase but I never got to the selection screen on how to respawn. I simply get an infinite loading screen for the past hmm… I think 2 hours.
I will wait it out till tommorrow as I’m going to sleep. Perhaps after an incoming server/backup restart I can login once again. I will let you know.